I can feel my gut traveling through my throat and beginning to unwillingly purge from me. No I do not want to feel this way neither do I ever plan for it. And really sometimes when you need to call people they are never contactable. And they seem to be un contactable at the same time. It’s amazing. So trying to hold in my gut so don’t look like I’m falling apart. I can’t just walk out of the house when I need to desperately. And on top of that my parents being able to read my fb wall is not going absolutely fabulous for me.

I have to ask is it so hard. Really I have to ask everyone is it so hard to reply. Is it really that hard really.