I had to get it off my chest and scribble down a few thoughts.

Somehow it seems like I deliberately make the wrong pick even though I have the right choice staring in my face. It’s nothing that should dwell on, I know but blleahhh. So many weird decisions made.

For example metaphorically
Option 1: Rock on ground
Option 2 : rock balancing on a straw vertically straight on the ground. Bear in mind the straw is the bendy straw.

Obvious choice is option 1 but somehow I derive to option 2. Honestly kick me in the head. I had clear opportunities and chances, butt nooooo.
I could laugh till I cry sometimes. I know bollocks :}

Happy New Year my baby kicks.
I shall bite you with delightful joy, bite you hard.
Till your flesh departs from your calcium/elastin/collagen deposits
Those are your bones by the way :}

spaaaaaaaaaa i go