forgive me for any spelling mistakes. but im posting by phone. i have this sick disgusting feeling thinking that my caveman's friends think im an absolute bitch slash whore, for how i dissapeared. i know thats a stretch. eventhough he says that he never implies negative things, doesnt mean that they think otherwise.

for example, if audrey rick saw me horrifiedly mangled over an issue. She would obviously have horrid muderous thoughts towards that anyone who ever it may be that caused it. even if i said otherwise.

likewise for his platoon mates. even though caveman jusitifies with me that does not say any bad but rather good. do you really think best mates will entirely change whats in their mind. obviously not, they'd most probably hold on to those delicious muderous thoughts.

side note: dont you love best mates and their muderous plots and thoughts.
eg: kessler and your horrifying laughable cauliflower damnations

i dont know why its making me sick beyond sick. yes i wanna puke and cry and rant. but everyones away. yes still pathetic with different reasons. D word isnt happening now so far but who knows years down the road. i just feel sick.