I have to say I am envious at this very moment.
For stupid reasons no doubt.

Boy will eff and run, aren't they simple minded.
Girls will stay and then sooner or later have upgraded.

being that kind of girl doesn't give me the right to be jealous or envious.
but even though I've explained it to myself again and again.
it doesn't help in anyway.

and even if i did date, whats to say I wouldn't upgrade.

destroy everything, which is fine as the way it is, in a monstrous way.
I still can't let it be
all I can do is be envious.


sooner or later I'll get over ad upgrade.