it pretty hilarious and depressing when you think about the friends which aren't there. Mostly depressing. The ones that were supposed to be there forever but now shunned you out. like just a while ago a friend which shall not be named :} i quote, I reach out but they dont even meet half way so why bother. or something like that i think. But true enough.

Its like they choose to end for you, they being the friends that were close. And you just have to settle and let them be. You cant go there and pester for the friendship that was once was. physcoish that would be.

oh well.

Audrey Rick come back to singapore I miss you.
And thank good for weekly meet ups the weekly meetup hun.
And the random old friends :}

the new girl who is going to be in my lab is coming tommorow.
eep.

I say I cont go out on weekends as I have family days.
you get pissed cause I can't lie to my parents and go out with you
I ask you go out today.
you say no
whats the reason
shit squat cause you dont want to go out only for 2 hours and go home
so dont you dare give me shit when I cant go out
when my reason has more balls then you
and your's is such bull

when work becomes boredom, which is a damn rarity since i've started working.
reading old blog posts and other close people's blog posts is entertainment. Esp when you work com doesnt allow you to install games or any flash for online games. boo.

reading all the crushes I had, one in particular, trying to show him through blogging without like telling them straight his face. lawl. most likely didn't like me back though. hahahahahah. lawl All the childish posts, I couldnt belive the "way" I wrote or explained :}

I think I dont want to have boyfreinds anymore, like just date. Unfortunately no singaporean boys have balls to ask girls out on dates. Some how it's amazingly programmed in them, the asian way, only girlfriend immidiately, no getting to know each other. Asians. furthermore the guys that hit on me are uummmmm. yea the ones that I dont want to start anything with :[

My great aunty on my dad's side, which I only meet on Hari Raya,
asked me "which school now?"
myself "no Im working now"
grand Aunty "can get married already then"
myself "No boys want me"

Imagine I had to speak malay ok, since she doesn't speak english. when I have a grade of F9 for malay, this conversation killed me.

People including my relatives and hadif, have been asking me why I'm not going out with guys. Stop asking me, how am I supposed to meet guys when all I do is work, and have outings with only freinds to dinner or movies. you dont meet new guys at dinners or movies. When I go to school maybe. But ntu and nus rejected me right. haiyo.

My greatest fear is dying a spinster, with no freinds.

I'm pretty lost in the education section. where the helll do i go from here, I only can go overseas and I dont have a solid 200K to throw away, well we could have but i dont like the feeling of taking that money one short. bllooooaaaahhh. kick me down. I'm terrified of taking a part time at PSB.

I'm pretty sure no one reads my blog cause i dont publicise it. Its for me to vent :} and escape boredom.

30minutes till I finish the incubation of my samples.then wrok begins. and will end in two hours after. then I'll be bored till 5.30 pm.

Hectic work and giving tution keeps me in denial of my No-potential-boyfreind-or-husband-when-I-am-alredy-20-years-old state of thinking. well keeps it in reduced levels but the worry is still there.